inside the walls....part 1

inside the walls part 1

I feel cold and see dark around me

I don't have any means for sympathy

There is nothing more to feel 

But regret of an aborted reject 

I am tired of faking emotions

To people who are no longer real 

They just smile and greet in fake kindness

I drifted from them, out to sea, many lives ago 

Only to be bewildered by their presence once a year

One day

Following a script of words we said 

The nostalgia feelings still linger

Echo in the memory 

But things become rearranged 

Contrived into absurd fantasy 

I cannot have the normal life 

The success and character of good deeds 

I come back into the reality strife 

One where everyone leaves

They float back and resurface

But I keep them out 

Residing inside these walls 

Everything surrounds in silence as I scream out loud 

~george ray