My heart is a time bomb
Ticking closer and closer while the blood flows through the veins
As she walks closer and closer
Scratching her nails deep into my skin
Swimming inside my vulnerability, she has obtained
It beats faster and faster
As I lay down, tied and tangled in an emotional disaster
The only way to express my feelings is to scream them out loud
The ticking comes down faster in reaching of self-doubt
I breathe faster within seconds upon seconds
Anxiety is the trigger that comes closer to the detonation of fear
Her words still linger
I don't want to believe
As she softly moves her fingers
The time and ticking stops and freezes
I am defenseless to the affections
But I've created this fantasy in mind
When I realize that a touch is a touch
A kiss is a kiss
Not a promise nor a commitment
As I am wrong to make these wishes
It's just to pass the time when no one else is around
She says it won't mean anything
But it is cute that it means something to me
I am still just a foolish boy
Playing the make believe games of falling in love
No use in praying in heavens above
Because if she won't listen, no higher spiritual forces can intervene
Only foolish perception is the reason deceived
As she speaks the truth with her eyes
That kept me hypnotized
In this romantic spell
Turned into this discomfort hell
The heart beats faster
The blood is popping as my veins become overwhelmed
The ticking time bomb continues to count down
Until I explode and my words scream out loud
It is the death of an idealistic romantic fantasy
One they say does not exist
As I lay lifeless in the same bed
That was shared in the ecstasy
Of passionate bliss
~george ray
