learning....

learning

I am learning how to take in everything
I am learning how to manage the things I cannot change
I am learning to take a step back to what does not work and rearrange
The things in my life that can achieve pure happiness
I am learning to follow my bliss
No matter the outcome I must follow through
Because what holds importance within me
Does not matter to you
I am learning people lie to themselves to believe in true love
That it's something that just happens
Something you cannot control
Some reject it's presence with strong resistance
While others bring it in and thank the fates from above
I am learning to be patient
I am learning self restraint
I know my dreams will have a time to live within my life
But I must overcome and not dwell on my inner turmoil strife
With extreme darkness comes a light
You have to balance the two or nothing will be right
There will be trials to face in this waking sunset
There will be times to lose yourself in the fall of night
And the jury and judgements of those around you will always take place
But there will be those with everlasting love and support
Helping to separate yourself from the toxic influences from your soul
I am learning how to be beautiful
I am learning how to forgive
I know that I will always survive in my own way
I am learning how to finally live

~george ray

washed away

washed away

washed away
washed away on the imploding sadness
turning into stars of a lost universe
glowing and withering and dying with no one to see them in their beautiful glory
burning the pages of my unwritten story
I want you to know me
I have so much to give in love
to lay in your comfort
is all I want every night
instead of this night
and every night before
I am rotting away on the inside
like a corpse sustained in isolation
care for me and cradle me gently
and I am forever yours
I will rub your feet every night
every time we are together I will show you how much
my love is derived in endless constellations
thousands of equations could not equal the massive amount
of how much happiness we can create within
together is a concept I still believe in
one cannot reach the highest stars alone
it takes companionship to build
a foundation in a loving home
so reach out and take me
I am free for the taking
cannot breathe without your oxygen
is it too late or am I doomed
to be washed away in the far reaches of space
forever drifting and suffocated
without a compass or a map I will just whither away

~george ray

I Just Want to be Loved...

I Just Want to be Loved

I see it in distance
I feel it's calming comforting presence
But there is nothing there
When I open my eyes
And I have a lack of surprise
But only once when I feel something so strong
I want to find it wrapped in my arms
To never bleed and to always linger
To hold my hand and face the danger
Of all the struggles this earth draws upon
If we can feel so high within a love
Nothing will stand in our way or break us apart
But I wake up on the floor
Crying in a cold sweat, tears surround my naked body
Awakening with no one with me
No voice to be heard
Except the screams and cries in my head
Why is it that when I feel so close
This amputation is executed upon me
How do I draw a line of self-acceptance
To feel love within myself
So that she can cross and let herself in
I am praying
I am speaking
I am dreaming
And I am asking
Please come to me once and for all
My sweet sweet release of a broken heart
Wounded and mended and recovering in your soft hands
Your sweet words in my ears will bring me to my feet again
And we can bask in a glow of sunshine
We can swim in the waters that will try to divide
But you will wrap around me so tightly
We can flow freely
In different cued scenes hopeful progressions and perfect melody
If only I can withstand this waiting
Because all I ever wanted was just to be loved
To let someone inside the walls that will break down
Fully exposed and vulnerable
Gently touching my face in sweet assurance
To finally find the peace I sought in determent

~george ray