Throwaway Fuck
(Dedicated to Phoebe. I hope you enjoyed our time together, however short, as much as I did.)
You crept into my darkness
Through a glowing screen
I reached out to so many
When you came it seemed like a dream
You were as soft as milk
We swim in our bones of desire
When you broke me down
With your sweet little empty things
My thoughts were leading into hallucinations
We could not take residence with queens and kings
You opened the gates
Smiling as you signaled the go ahead
Only to slam with no resistance
As I fell face down from my feet
I was proceeding with caution
Healing from stabbed emotional wounds
You said not to worry
That you meant no harm
You said you used to use boys
Parading with your sexual misdirections
But that you wanted more
And I led myself on disingenuously
Surrounded in an distorted misrepresented romance
Your color changed too swiftly
Like a chameleon it was hard to see
What hue and shade you existed in
Your voice was calming
My heartfelt gestures were foolish proceeding
I tried to reach into your signal
But you were always unreceptive
I cannot reach out to a closed off affection
Once filled a spark of life, now an abortion
Of a potential connection
A wandering love that never will be grasped
Myself and so many others were hypnotized by your almond eyes
Then with a sudden movement turned to stone and collapsed
You can't help it if you're just another fucked up girl
Looking for her own peace of mind
But not for a man so genuine willing to give himself up
To join wrapped around in an eternal sunshine
It wasn't passion
Just a drunken compulsion
I layered myself deep inside you
Only to be tossed aside
As another throwaway fuck....
~george ray
(Sorry for the slack tide my beautiful watchful eyes. The bees have been buzzing creativity constant in my hive. More to come soon.)
