Good Grief Girls/Broken Blue Boys part one

Good Grief Girls/Broken Blue Boys part one

What is your secret Good Grief Girls?
That is punished and plagued by the Broken Blue Boys
Winding us up for their spinning twirl
Then wind empty as their thrown away toys
You penetrated my vulnerability
Sewed yourself deep inside my skin
You tortured, got away with murder so swiftly
And you will never ask me to forgive
So you kill the heart of me as you kill yourself
I cannot stop you, I have no will
As we self-destruct of everything we felt
Shoot the bullet, cut me deep, make me swallow every pill
Strangle me with your passive petty resentment
Knock me down from where I stand on this emotional crutch
Smile as you target me with dishonest intentions
As I lay defenseless under your euphoric touch
Now you cut me open from the inside
Throw me into your tsunami tides
I know you love to see me break
And girls don't want broken boys
But love to break them to fill their void.

~george ray

rinse and repeat....

I am going to be alight
I am going to get through this night
When disappointment reigns
With nothing to gain
I try to sit in peaceful composure
Without a thought
Without a reason
I reject the negativity of my tension
Without hesitation
I will smile
Without regret
I will carry someone in my heart
Even if it won't work out
Even against my paranoid doubt
I am still alive
I am here today
Even in isolation I will stay
Storms come and pass
Even if romance never lasts
There is always something new to be thankful for
There is always being close to you....

~george ray

just be....

When you touch me I'm defenseless
You smile through my vulnerability fence
You take it down and make me lose myself
Only to retreat as I fall into self abusiveness
Stab me in the heart so I know you're close
Feed me your lies inside my ears so I can rest assure
You're the only thing I have my only dose
To lay in ignorant bliss of your loneliness cure
I don't want a taste
I don't want to forget your face
But you have entrapped me in a self-loathing paranoid panic
Everything is background noise and static
Just love me
Just stay
Just tell me what I want to hear
Say you'll just be
My everything....

~george ray

fled from my bed....

Once in my bed, now in a memory.
One that has thrown myself into certain misery. 
For a brief moment I was wrapped in your sunshine ecstacy. 
Now I search and you're no where near me.
I want to find.

I want to wrap myself in you and intertwine.
Into a new stage of perceptual bliss.
You made me melt at first kiss.
And when our skin on skin and bodies sequenized souls.
For a moment I felt your warmth.
Only to be taken away and sent to dark dimensions.
Like an addict I crawl, cry and scream to be stuck in this rejection.
I just need to feel you one moment more.
Because I just can't shake you off, you're the only one I want to adore....

~george ray